Finding x.

What I was impressed was never what I thought of. Life was too non-linear to be limited. But the average people tend to sort others and themselves, by the description of their behaviours. You know you have never been alone until you read these lines alone at your room. You think every other people are so happily together. But no, they are as alone as you sitting on their chair, trying to fall asleep or in understanding someone. So, accepting the things as they are -just in words is easy- but in action, it was never as easy as it seemed.

I was sitting in my room, trying to fall asleep by thinking whether I can shape the way I dream. By chance or by some other unkown force I remembered those words of that one of the weird stories of all that has been told by film makers. Well thanks to them, we would never be that decisive to express that reality like that.

"Forgetting someone could be easy but getting them out of your heart was another story."

As far as I remember, these kind of sentences filled with wisdom seemed always too over generalized to me. There should have been some people who were not like this, having their tea while forgetting the one that went away, too easily, free of care.But coming to that point which I mentioned in the first sentence, this was also a generalized idea putting me in a situation where I think I can control all the lovers of the world and their minds.
There were indeed some people who can not ever take those from their hearts, living with them forever without ever letting anyone else to come in.

Alas! Once our differential equation teacher said; life was indeed non linear. When you hear it, it's just some words crumbling among your other thoughts of life. It then dissapears as he puts an equation on the board for us to solve. Yes, that was all we wanted :P and we forget the reality of that sentence.

Once you realize that non-linearity inside your mind and your heart, it all makes sense. You can even explain to yourself why you are sitting on that desk, taking courses from your instructor at that very moment. Well, you may want to enjoy your drink in Bahama's at that moment but yeah, you're enjoying with your classmates instead.
Life doesn't necessarily gives you the 'x'.

Like the forgetting case, you may try to do it, but sometimes it just doesn't work.

Then what you're gonna do?

Well you can take the derivative at that point and see whether it works. Who knows what happens when you do that. Maybe you can find another x...



"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!"

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