Walking through

When she found herself piling up a list of songs she hasnt listened to for a long time, she decided to embrace the growing feeling.

It was sneaking in like a drug, slowly dissolving in her veins and travelling to different parts of her body.

Being aware didnt help to define what it was, as it appeared at different instances - in the midst of walking through a breeze for example, or observing a bird passing by, and then there were melodies crawling her mouth- pulling her to the songs.

It was easy to be drawn to the familiarity of it. Warm and secure. Calm and see-through. And it was born at the instance of a talk- an insignificant moment for many but too late for her as she got lost in the flow and decided to welcome the new feelings.

Just a talk, I assure you, an exchange of words in an attempt to express feelings and thoughts. But the flow - it was familiar, yet unknown and welcoming. Noone could tell the invisible knot that was being knit- except maybe the goodbye hugs were getting longer and longer?- but that was just in her mind. 

Wasnt it important to feel "the feelings" after all? Pass through them or more accurately- let them pass through you.

Flashing lights, a glass of wine and sunrise. A butterfly on the go. Sliding through colors in all wavelengths. Slowly, she could feel the take over and let them wash the shores of her skin.

Then one day, it hit her.

There it was, the reality, disguising as hoops that are getting higher and higher to jump over. 

The unknown that was pulling and temptive was transforming into a windy, rocky road. It was a losing game, after all. The feeling was transforming into a capture in the lonely corridors of her thoughts and reality demanding an answer, as otherwise she wont be able to move further with whatever in her hands.

But what concrete answer could she offer with what she has - something floating with all its possibilties? 

It was either geting lost in the midst of a butterfly museum even if all of them might be dead at the end of her walk or embracing the reality and to give up before starting to consider walking.

She could swear it was just a talk but, there she was, just floating in a cloud of emotions. 

In an attempt to not make a decision, she turned to what she knows best, to write a story about it.

And she wrote a story about it.



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